June 2010
1 post
universally speaking.
this whole ordeal of a situation is pretty pointless to put so much energy into. i don’t care anymore: about it or about you. i don’t forgive you either. i don’t believe in the whole “forgive and forget” bullshit, but i do believe in not forgetting. how else do you learn from your mistakes? i, for one, do not want to repeat my mistakes. they haunt and you don’t...
May 2010
2 posts
my life is amazing.
Why do I even bother? It all falls apart and when it doesn’t, someone is bound to fuck it up and then make it fall apart even harder. Today made me realize how few friends I truly have. Does that make me a loser? Or just difficult to get close to? Or whatever you want to call it?
To be honest, I give up on giving a shit as to what anyone else thinks. Anyone within reason - as in, Ashland...
how can i love you?
i genuinely thought you cared. stupid me.
April 2010
1 post
it's okay to smile for yourself.
It feels weird walking these same halls that you once did, laying in the bed that you had, and smelling you on your clothes. I can’t believe that it’ll be a year soon.
I think about you every day. I was scared to live without you but you’ve taught me that I am capable of being my own person, walking on my own feet, and not needing you to carry me every step of the way. .. I...
March 2010
1 post
i don't want to be found.
you say that you still care about me, that we’re still as close as we were, but you never talk to me. i mean, yeah, sure, once every blue moon, once whenever you feel guilty because i’m on a pity trip, once because i might just have to remind you or someone else for that matter. i don’t want to be your friend if just saying “hello” once every week is that much of a...
February 2010
6 posts
just promise to keep your heart broken.
i’m stronger than this.
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i am for you.
i don’t understad why it upsets me so but it does and i hate feeling like this so maybe i should just focus on my guests - like normal people would.
so happy that the crew’s here. i hope that shitweather comes in so that we get snowed in and can watch the olympics all week. :> okay, that sounds really bad but i would feel a lot better spending it with everyone.
aslkdfjf anyway,...
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spica.
i probably shouldn’t have run off like that but i absolutely cannot stand it whenever people tell me that i don’t know what i’m talking about and i do. especially in this scenario … it dealt with it on a daily basis because i was that kind of person. at one time … i’d like to think that i’m not. anymore, at least.
at any rate, it’s all just an act....
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cherish.
holy shit, canada. that was incredible. the opening was very moving so if you weren’t watching it you missed out. a lot.
just .. wow.
monster.
if i don’t fit in there, then where do i fit in?
i’ve never known comaraderie in any sense of the word before i’d met ashley. i have something to look forward to every day at school. i feel stupid, codependent, and desperate in saying that i’m only going to school because of her. because she gets me. because she’s who i wish i could be and, at the same time, the...
for a moment, i can tell i've got you.
i turn seventeen in less than one month. i’m scared to be aging like this .. it’s like i haven’t enjoyed any piece of these past five years, childhood, whatever. i don’t mind being in school because that’s the only place i can ever see my friends. the internet is the only place that i can remotely be myself, or maybe this overly-forward persona is just that: a...
January 2010
2 posts
お誕生日おめでとうございます !!
WHO’S 27-YEARS-OLD?
UTADA IS, THAT’S WHO~ :0
4 tags
this is the one.
so, i decided to give tumblr a shot although i’ve heard how much woe it gives just one person via twitter (omg, maybe 233+ tweets about it). i’m not quite sure what the function of tumblr is. i mean, there’s lj and then there’s twitter. is it supposed to be a hybrid? if someone could please explain the function and purpose of tumblr to me, please: i’m more than...